(Note: This was originally written in the Spring of 2017.)
Is it a motivator? I think so.
I’m sitting here, in a university class room, and despite the irrefutable quality of the subject and following discourse I just… I feel tired. It’s the worst. I know I am actually tired due to lack of sleep and other such usual factors but to be honest I am also totally fucking bored.
Why? I dunno. Could it be stress? There are medical reasons for my tiredness but I don’t know what they are right now. I know one for sure, though, and it’s that if I am confronted by activity of others for mentally draining exercises then my body just feels the need to sleep. It is more likely to happen with something that I am not involved, to the point where I am fairly confident there is a strong correlation between level of involvement and likelihood of sleep.
It’s a mess, really, but I have at least discovered one thing; feeling discomfort helps. I feel both actually awake and a desire to do something. Now that’s motivation for me. The funny thing is that it is physical discomfort that has sparked this motivation.
I’m fairly sure if there is non-physical discomfort that I’d just feel a wave of tiredness.
(Note: This was originally written in 2015.)
So I was recently listening to Wil Wheaton’s ‘Radio Free Burrito’ podcast (full recommendations; enthusiastic even!) and he said this thing that had me pointing at his theoretical self in exclaimation:
“once you get it out you don’t want to make it”
… so I exclaimed and pointed “that’s it!”
There is a part of that in me and whilst this is a terrible example of excusing my laziness, I still feel okay about publishing this. Writing this is in itself an act of procrastination… although, since it is actually writing a THING and getting it out of my mind I’d argue that it’s not necessarily bad.
Either way, it felt good to hear it being said by somebody who happens to be such a good creator of things, and also gave me the chance to write this thing and thus increase the likelihood that I’ll actually do the things I should be doing.
This has been delayed, which is obvious, but I’m still determined to have basic goals for the year; they’re not resolutions and not even the start of what it is that I am particularly determined to add to my life, but it is at least the start of something.
I was inspired to make this after watching a recent Vlogbrothers video by John Green:
It’s a basic list for simplicity — this site is a new start, and I am determined to join with it a fresh and clean approach.
- Read more stories.
- Be it books, on the web, on paper, anything so long as it is a non-news story.
- Find good sources for news.
- I prefer small collections of varied sources and am comfortable paying for quality where possible.
- Write for this site everyday.
- Even if I don’t publish everyday (although I do want to get at least one 30-day stretch in at some point).
I’ll be keeping track of myself with the blog, which works especially well because of its presence within the third item; this is especially great with Micro.blog (thanks Manton!), since the service provides the exact thing I have missed from social networks: a blend of independence, an environment in which focus is both attainable and encouraged, and most importantly of all a desire that the space in which we all wish to share with each other (the web) is in fact a good space.